Updated: Feb 12
Along with the good parts of 2020 life, have come a few bad. I don't think anyone would disagree with that. The changes and uncertainty have brought a new layer of anxiety for most people. It's only natural to be a little weary of what is to come. Will this pandemic ever end? Will I get to see my family again? Is the worst over yet?
I have to admit, I am tired of the anxiety. There are days I just want to forget about all of the uncertainty. There are days I wake up and think, "is this just all a dream? Oh wait no, this is really happening...still." I feel like I am living on a roller coaster that I never got in line for. The giant old rickety wood roller coaster that creeks and pops and you feel like just might fall apart, but you can't get off because you are stuck in the middle. Did I mention that I do NOT like rides. I can barely swing at the park without getting dizzy. I can't pump my legs too much or my stomach starts to turn. I would be happy to hand over my tickets if anyone wants to repeat this roller coaster.
I honestly don't know how I would calm my nerves without my faith. I always know I have someone to lay my burdens on, no matter how heavy they seem. "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Mathew 11:28-30
I have come back to these verses time and time again, when I'm anxious, when I'm frustrated, when I am just downright tired. "Come to me," Jesus says. He wants the anxious parts of our heart. He wants to carry our load of worry with us, right along side of us. He doesn't want us to feel alone in our struggles. The peace of releasing my worry onto Jesus, just handing it over for Him to take away, is indescribable. I want that peace every day. Sometimes I just need to remind myself that I don't need to bear the weight alone. I have a loving God who takes the weight away, and I am so thankful for that. How else would I get through some days? How do you?